I'm kind of ashamed to admit it, but I always tried to catch AI whenever I could in the past....just to see who's who, and what's up. And everytime I would watch it, it reminded me of how terrible I sing, and how I felt sorry for the auditioners that were told by family and friends that they sounded good, then went to AI and received their rude awakenings.
I just caught an episode of AI Rewind the other night, and it turned me off even more to "singing".....or trying to sing.
But it just so happened that right about the time or year that AI started, was the same time that a pretty karaoke dj caught my eye, and Man Oh Man!! Did I wish I could sing!?! And all that AI crap was just totally coincidental at the time....it made my attempts an embarrassing struggle. Being in a bar with others who could actually sing a few tunes....and even meeting a couple who claimed to have "tried out" for AI before. It was hard to tell the difference what karaoke was suppose to be....just people drinking trying to have fun, or serious AI wannabes laughing at others who didn't sing so well.
I started trying to sing in the bar to try to overcome some social anxiety issues I've had since forever. I've always felt that anyone and everyone were socially popular except for myself. Dysfunctional childhood I suppose.
Well, it was helping me! For a while......
The more and more I thought I was helping myself, I was actually headed in the opposite direction......worse social anxiety!! Karaoke became another source of un-needed stress in my life.....struggling to perform acceptably to drunks and AI wannabes in a bar. Neglecting necessary functions in my family life....spending too much time practicing songs for the next time I'd go to the bar.....maybe wishing I was something I was not.....fantasizing about a different life.....a different woman.....etc...etc....
My point I think is.....MY GOD!! I'M GLAD I FINALLY CAME TO MY SENSES!!
My life was just FINE before I discovered karaoke.
I have a devoted wife of almost 27 years....a house....a dog....a couple cats....2 beautiful daughters....maybe a friend or two.....a humble profession.....and a million other things to do than to try and bolster my self-esteem by soliciting myself for Mr. Popularity. Sure, I'm still here....still trying to sing an occasional song or two......but I'm tapped out.....the fantasy is over. It no longer serves the same purpose it did for me before. I know who I am. I'm average Joe....love it or leave it.
And what does my little rant here have to do with American Idol Rewind? Not a whole helluva lot! I'd never make it through the line to sign up! But if so, I'd croak right on tv in front of the millions of people while auditioning. But maybe....just maybe there are others here at KS who can relate to my story? Maybe this little rant is a reflection of their own recollections of themselves? Maybe someone else here has unconsciously almost ruined their own lives flirting with an unreachable dream? An obsession? A need to be noticed? To get laid? Or whatever purpose karaoke serves for them.
Don't get me wrong though. For some here, these dreams of stardom are quite possible, but for most of us, not a chance. It's a fun hobby, (karaoke) but I think people take it waaaay too seriously. I know, I was on that bandwagon in the not so distant past.
I think my purpose was just to get laid? Hell, now I'm not really sure.
I just crack up everytime I see that AI stuff. There really are some misguided people flocking to the try outs.
I just wondered if anyone else who has ever watched that show gets a reaction like I do? A feeling of embarrassment? A sigh of relief? Vomiting?
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